The Strokes' Albert Hammond Jr. Said The Band Was Worried He Would Kill Himself
Posted by Joseph Lee on 10.14.2013
Due to his drug use...
In an interview with The Talks, The Strokes' Albert Hammond Jr said that the band was worried that he would kill himself due to his previous drug use. Here are highlights:
On how the band reacted to his drug use: "What everyone tells me is that the friendship came before the band. Everyone just told me as a friend, 'I don't want to see you like this. Forget the band.' Such a big part of me is being in this band, it's huge, but life isn't all about what you do. I feel like our culture says, 'You are what you make,' but I don't believe that. So I think everyone was just more concerned that I was going to kill myself."
On how close he got to death: "I wasn't going to kill myself on purpose, but you reach a point where you really just don't see it and you just don't care. It could have happened so easily so many times. I don't even know how I kept on waking up. First you are at least measuring it. But by the end you are so shaky you are just mixing and pouring and sometimes you feel it. You push it in and you know it is too much and then your body goes into some kind of shake and you get extreme fear, like, 'That's it, I have done it, I have done too much. I am going to fall down.'"
On going back to work after rehab: "When I came back I looked at the guitar in a very confused way for a year or year and a half. I just didn't get it. You don't get anything. So it just kind of sat there. Then slowly but surely it came out and came out even better. I did a few songs on piano and… it was fun, it was a change, but then after that I tossed those away and stepped up again and felt like I was creating something different when I started working on my latest solo EP. I feel like it is a mixture and understanding of my two previous solo albums, which is why I am calling it the best thing I have done. It is where I always wanted to be but needed to take those steps to get to."